Month: May 2013
Lost Forever, But Never Again
“Fine art is something wonderful that’s left long into the future … eternal beauty.”
-Sasori, Naruto
“The internet’s not written in pencil, it’s written in ink”
-Erica Albright, The Social Network
When you write, the memory of an event, thought, or emotion is preserved and eternalized, unless you lose it. However, in this day and age, it’s less likely to lose your writings unless you actually delete it or post it online and it gets taken down. And recently, the latter has happened to me. It’s quite tragic, really.
My writing, two years’ worth of it, is now gone forever, without any way for it to be retrieved, all thanks to multiply.com shifting its paradigm from a blog site into a marketing site. The site happythreefriends.multiply.com is no more, and it’s all my damn fault for not knowing that heeding that they’ll be changing their format and will be deleting all user-generated content. I only saved the photographs, but not my writings. I just lived my life the way I always do. And now I suffer the loss of a written past.
Even though it was a site that I sometimes would cringe at whenever I read because of the rather inexperienced style I had before, it was an important relic that reminded me of my roots, memories, thoughts, and feelings that spanned from my sophomore year until a few days after becoming a senior, and the beginning of my passion’s ignition. And last but not least, it was the foundation of the mythology of the hopeless romantic warrior-poet that is I. God, the multiple universes, heaven and the angels, brotherhood and our battles, friends and our feasts, the goddess and Aya Toujo – my tales would rival those of whatever ancient civilization there is.
But unlike them, there would be no record of my past glory. Unlike them, I was unwise. I did not write in stone or even paper. I put too much trust on the internet. It may be written in ink just like Erica Albright said, but you can only write with ink on paper, paper that can easily be torn and burned, and the internet is much, much more vulnerable compared to a single sheet of paper. With a press of a button, a thousand universes that took eons to be created can be sent to oblivion. And now that I have realized that rather grim truth, I am now prepared.
I could no longer afford to lose any more of my writings. I will be vigilant for any announcements on the collapse of Tumblr and WordPress, which hopefully isn’t anytime soon. Also, I will be writing on Word first so that I would have a copy in my hard drive in case I actually fail to watch out for the deletion of my blog sites. Through these simple steps, my writings – records of my thoughts, my emotions, my myths, my realities, and my life will be preserved and see the future to serve as a link to the past and of a temporal reality to a never-ending fantasy.
My writings, whether they spread like wildfire or remain confined to a small sector of the internet, will last for an eternity, waiting for souls to lay its eyes upon it. As they read word after word, I shall live again as well in their hearts and minds. And just like what Sasori said, my works and I shall become eternally beautiful fine works of art.
If Love Is A Crime, Then I’d Probably Read A Manga From A Genre I Don’t Usually Read
What in God’s name did I just read?
I’m not the type who reads tragedy or heavy drama because it greatly affects me in a negative way. I mean, enough bad things happen in real life, I pretty much don’t need more of it in my personal doses of fiction. However, because of my sense of depravity, optimism, and romance, I did not only read Prison School, I enjoyed every minute of it and finished all 63 available chapters of it, even reading it in the workplace despite the rather questionable content.
If you’re not one who can tolerate stories that involve protagonists being subjected to seemingly endless torment and suffering, then I wouldn’t recommend Prison School to you. And don’t trust the synopsis in manga sites, as it is actually about five boys in a newly co-ed school who got caught peeking and were subjected to being held in “prison” by the underground student council, headed by a misandrist president. If that’s not bad enough, let’s add in a vice-president who doubles like a warden in a school uniform warped to look like a dominatrix’s garb who tortures them every day as well as a mentally unstable prude who’s a mentally screwed-up martial arts master who makes every possible way to see the main protagonist’s member. Still not cracking eh? Let’s throw in a final twist of fate – your love interest who’s angelic in terms of beauty and kindness is the president’s precious little sister. Planning to no longer read it? NOT ME. Especially when the protagonist’s love interest is angelic in terms of beauty and kindness.
It’s a total enigma what made it such a page-turner. Could it be the top-notch art and the beautiful girls? Or is it the awfully depraved fanservice and humor deeply rooted in female domination, masochism, sadism, and human misfortune in general? I don’t know about you guys, because even though being dominated by a whip-wielding girl in leather is definitely a good thing, the latter is definitely not my reason, especially when it already crossed the line between role play and doing it for real. In fact, I’m finding the tragedies the boys encounter exponentially harder to take than Shingeki no Kyojin, which has a premise that consists of the last packet of humanity fighting endless hordes of colossal beings. Wanna know the drive that makes me turn the pages? It is the hope for the boys to be free and the main protagonist, Kiyoshi, to end up with his sweet girl Chiyo, as well as for Shinjo to end up with Anzu. Can’t help but remember college…
Back then, I dealt with girls who are almost the same as the underground student council minus the almost nudity and the physical chastising. They made me do their errands, spend my dough for their sake, and turned me into a clown, only to end up with our so-called “friendship” forgotten a few months after graduation. At least the underground student council is hot and honest with themselves, unlike my former classmates and lady “friends”. And back then, I didn’t have anyone who’s just like Chiyo or Anzu. Nobody was. Nobody still is.
Romance-wise, I would’ve chosen Prison School over the college education, the work I’ve had, as well as the current life I’m having, because as long as I’d have a girl like Chiyo or Anzu who is waiting for me – beautiful inside out, understanding, and is an actually normal girl unlike the members of the underground student council who evoke every single feminazi trope there is, all the torture they would throw at me would be nothing but a mere pinprick.
Seriously James, all that punishment you don’t deserve for just one girl? You have no idea. Some men would go to jail for a girl like Chiyo or Anzu. But I’m not just like some men. For her, I’d stay in jail. And when I’m out, I’ll be serving time again, because love is a crime, and I’ll be her prisoner. She’ll lock me up deep inside her heart and give me the keys, because she knows that I’ll never escape.
I still can’t believe I’m reading something I don’t usually do so because of a love story. The author better give Chiyo and Kiyoshi as well as Shinjo and Anzu a good ending or else I swear I’ll make prison sound like heaven to the ears of that sexist masochist.
Dream Blog: Beauty And The Breasts [NSFW]
I’ve been visiting sites a morally upright citizen should not be visiting, so the Sandman became Fate’s agent and gave me a little tit for tat…
Last night I dreamt about a girl who I’ll codename as “Erich”, a cosplayer girl who I’m personally acquainted with. Chinita, fair-skinned, with black hair up to her shoulders, petite – “lolita” for short, as how an otaku would put it. Anyway, in my dream, she wasn’t a flat-chested loli, but a grown woman with a soft-looking, fleshy, and voluptuous skin and well-developed features, especially her breasts, which are flat as a floor in reality. And of all the places I met up with her, it was in my own shower room.
I didn’t know why and how my shower room got so big (had no intention of knowing either), but she was there, on all fours, wearing nothing but a towel to cover her arousing body. I didn’t know what she was doing either, but she was probably looking for something (probably and hopefully soap). And then, unexpectedly and thankfully, a part of the towel fell off, uncovering her lovely and sizable breasts shaped like two perfect cups of milk gelatin as well as the cherries on top. The towel hits the wet floor but she does not press it back against her chest, and then she raises her head to meet my gaze as if she was perfectly aware of my presence and wasn’t a few inches of fabric short of being stark naked in front of a heterosexual male who has been longing for a sexy and desirable female almost all his life. I look at her jet-black eyes as she greets me “Hi Kuya James”, and I was left speechless…just like a scene taken straight from an ecchi anime. Then someone knocks at the shower room’s door, and everything pretty much gets hazy from that point on, ruining what could’ve been more fap material.
Damn, what I wouldn’t give to see her beauty and her breasts with my own two eyes instead of it being just a mere projection of the subconscious. Too bad that’s probably never going to happen, unless her frame radically changes to just like how I envisioned it and I become some sort of cosplay casanova who can lull girls to coming to bed with me. And too bad dreams don’t usually have a rerun or part two.
Mama’s Man? (A Mother’s Day Special)
“And be a simple, kind of man.
Oh be something, you love and understand.
Baby be a simple, kind of man.
Oh, won’t you do this for me son,
If you can?”-Lynyrd Skynyrd, Simple Man
I was a mama’s boy when I was a kid. How can I not be one? As a child, she woke me up for school, serves me breakfast, heats up my bathwater, and cooks my lunch. By the time I get home, be it just in time for dinner or even if it’s way past that, there’s always food on the table to make sure I’m not hungry. Whenever there’s a sale at our local mall, she takes us out to buy clothes, watch a movie, and eat. And if ever I get sick, she would always cook me food appropriate for my condition, give me medicine, and takes me to a doctor if it seems as if it’s going to be really bad. This went on up until college…oh alright I admit, it still goes on up until now (except for the wake up part because I’m currently on a PM shift). I’m a mama’s boy. Except that I’m no longer a boy. I’m twenty-two, a young adult – a man. I’m a mama’s man.
It’s embarrassing really. Well, not really, because it’s actually convenient. Not that I’m feeding off mother’s kindness, but why should I be ashamed if she still takes care of me? I mean, I can take care of myself, it’s just that mother actually takes care of me better. And not only does she takes care of me, she also listens to my never-ending and redundant rantings, gives me advice, and tries to understand my idiosyncrasies even though there’s that oh-so-problematic generation gap. However, there seems to be one problem…
Even if I choose to never get married and live with my folks instead, the time will come when mother will be entering heaven. No more of her cooking. No more of her advices. Well, I’d probably have a wife who’d take care of me, cook me food, wake me in the morning, and give me advice – but there’s just something in the way mother does things, that tender-loving care only she could deliver. Wait, maybe I shouldn’t be thinking of something quite morbid on Mother’s Day. Then again, it’s not morbid – it’s realistic. It’s not a question of if, but a question of when.
It’s going to happen, so I should learn to show much I love mother while she’s here with us. I should stop doing stupid stuff that isn’t helping me. I’ll take care of myself better because she won’t be always there to look out for me, plus it’d leave her sacrifices in vain if I abuse myself. I’ll do chores again so that she could have more rest time, after all she’s turning fifty-four this year, it’s high time she took a backseat from all the housework. I’ll try to learn to cook so that I wouldn’t have to depend on her always for food and make her proud, not to mention that girls like boys who can cook. I’ll get a better job or go back to school and pursue what I actually want. I’ll get a decent wife and raise my children well. I’ll be the man I have always wanted to be, a man that would make mother proud, a man that would make the people around him think that his mother raised him well – mama’s man. Damn, I hope I’d actually make good on these promises…
Dear Mama,
It’s 12:24AM already, so Belated Happy Mother’s Day. I could not thank God enough for giving me you, and I could not thank you enough for loving, caring, and sacrificing for me so much up until now, even though you can practically kick me out of the house and fend for myself. Thanks to you, I am what I am today. I know that you’re proud of me, but I’ll make you even prouder. I’ll make you more thankful to God for helping you in raising me. For you I’ll be the best me I can ever be. For you I’ll be a man full of virtues and love for God and His people. I love you, Mama. :’)
Just A Short Election Lesson
I’m not really one to post something political, but the patriot in me is stirring me to do so since elections are coming this Monday.
I don’t really have anything to tell you guys. I don’t have anyone who I’d recommend you guys to vote for. Heck, I don’t have anyone in mind to vote for as well. All I know is that I’m not voting any traditional politicians, so you guys shouldn’t as well. Don’t just vote on who you think would be a good government official – vote on who will actually do so. Don’t just follow your gut instinct or listen to their propaganda. NEVER BELIEVE WHAT THEY SAY! After all…
Do research, read the papers especially past ones, use the internet – it’s the Information Age for Christ’s sake. This is the fate of the country in the next three years, leave it not to your feelings, but to sound judgement and rational thinking. The power is in our hands – give it to the right people.
And to our future senators, whoever would win, deserving or otherwise…If you’re into this for public service, then good for you. If not, then you better clean up your act and not waste the precious faith, hope, and trust the people has thrust upon you. Should you choose not to, the people, or even worse – divine retribution, will show you the error of your ways.